Time Flies..

Again, months have passed since I last posted, most of my readers have faded into nothingness.

I finally landed a teaching job about a month after my last post. I started working at an Autism day school. My students had severe Autism, severe cognitive disabilities, and very (VERY) severe behavior disorders. What did that mean for me? Four months of misery.

So, I kept searching for a different job and managed to land a new teaching position in a safer environment. I also had to take a huge pay cut to do it.

New job is o.k. - beginning to think maybe teaching isn't the place for me. Lots of stress, not much support, and everyone knows more than I do (or so they think). When you go into teaching, no one tells you you'll spend 14 - 16 hours per day, everyday of the school year just to keep your head above water. Summers? Vacations? That's when the rest of the stuff gets done that you don't have time for during the school year!

I have no life outside my job.

Another year gone by...

Almost a year has gone by since I last posted. I didn't even bother to read it. So much has changed for me.

• I made it through the student teaching assignment, graduated with my degree in special education, only to struggle for the past year looking for a job. I'm still looking.
• My oldest son turned 16...... it's hard to believe. Where have the years gone.
• By September, a very difficult teacher had me thinking about home schooling my 8th grader... school refused to see the clear signs of Autism & test him.
• In December my youngest was diagnosed (finally!) with Aspergers Syndrome, a form of Autism. After my relief that someone besides me finally saw it.......reality hit. My son has Autism. Talk about a smack in the face.
• The car died it's final death. No emergency rescue could save it this time.
• Christmas found my sister half a state away, sick...... it just wasn't the same.
• 2011 started with everyone home sick at some point during the first 4 weeks of the new year.
• Still no job & things aren't looking good.... maybe February will be better.

It's now March 2011.

• My oldest is taking his Spring Break in Nicaragua on a missions trip. I pray it teaches him some gratefulness and humility.
• Another job interview gone nowhere.
• Horrible teacher finally had to be reported to administration & after months of making myself a pain in the school's butt, there will be a meeting...... which will be on the teachers' permanent record. It should be interesting this afternoon.
• I'm starting to feel a bit like Job from the Bible.........

So discouraged right now. I'm in such desperate need for some positive things to be happening in my life. A decent job would be a great start.... so maybe I can afford to get my Grandmas' old car up & running so I can finally have a car again. I know so many in the world have so much less but there are huge burdens hanging over me now that I just can't seem to shake.